Murakami Haruki - 잡문집

 

 

 

 

"혹시 여기에 높고 단단한 벽이 있고 거기에 부딪쳐서 깨지는 알이 있다면

 

나는 늘 그 알의 편에 서겠다." 예루살렘 문학상 소감 中 / 무라카미 하루키

 

 

올초에 읽었던 하루키씨의 최근 저서인 "잡문집" 중에서

메모 해놓았던 구절을 문득 찾았다.

 

저 문학상 소감문을 받으러 예루살렘을 방문하는 자체가

여러가지 갈등을 일으킬 소지가 있었지만

본인의 가치관에 따라 그곳에 갔고

시상식에 참석했다.

 

가자 지구를 폭격한 이스라엘군으로 인해

일본내 팔레스타인들과 동료 작가를 포함한 여론들은

무라카미씨에게 시상식에 참석하지 말것을 강력하게 요구했고

참석시 외교적인 갈등으로 번질수도 있을 만한 사항이었다.

무라카미씨는 이 일로 인해 살해협박까지 받았다고 한다.

 

하지만 그는 예루살렘행을 택했고

수상소감을 통해 전쟁의 경각심을 알리는 벽과 알이라는 수상소감을 남긴다.

 

 

다음은 수상 소감 전문이다 (Walls and Eggs)

 

 

 

So I have come to Jerusalem. I have a come as a novelist, that is – a spinner of lies.

 

Novelists aren’t the only ones who tell lies – politicians do (sorry, Mr. President) – and diplomats, too. But something distinguishes the novelists from the others. We aren’t prosecuted for our lies: we are praised. And the bigger the lie, the more praise we get.

 

The difference between our lies and their lies is that our lies help bring out the truth. It’s hard to grasp the truth in its entirety – so we transfer it to the fictional realm. But first, we have to clarify where the truth lies within ourselves.

 

Today, I will tell the truth. There are only a few days a year when I do not engage in telling lies. Today is one of them.

 

When I was asked to accept this award, I was warned from coming here because of the fighting in Gaza. I asked myself: Is visiting Israel the proper thing to do? Will I be supporting one side?

 

I gave it some thought. And I decided to come. Like most novelists, I like to do exactly the opposite of what I’m told. It’s in my nature as a novelist. Novelists can’t trust anything they haven’t seen with their own eyes or touched with their own hands. So I chose to see. I chose to speak here rather than say nothing.
So here is what I have come to say.

 

If there is a hard, high wall and an egg that breaks against it, no matter how right the wall or how wrong the egg, I will stand on the side of the egg.

 

Why? Because each of us is an egg, a unique soul enclosed in a fragile egg. Each of us is confronting a high wall. The high wall is the system which forces us to do the things we would not ordinarily see fit to do as individuals.

 

I have only one purpose in writing novels, that is to draw out the unique divinity of the individual. To gratify uniqueness. To keep the system from tangling us. So – I write stories of life, love. Make people laugh and cry.

 

We are all human beings, individuals, fragile eggs. We have no hope against the wall: it’s too high, too dark, too cold. To fight the wall, we must join our souls together for warmth, strength. We must not let the system control us – create who we are. It is we who created the system.

 

I am grateful to you, Israelis, for reading my books. I hope we are sharing something meaningful. You are the biggest reason why I am here

 

 

http://www.mutantfrog.com/2009/02/16/haruki-murakami-on-walls-and-eggs-in-the-holy-land/ 에서 발췌